Just remember this.

[Go_On_Shadow]

I remember a quote that said
"Sad people Show their feelings. Depressed people make others smile since they know what depression feels like."
This quote has stuck with me for months now. I have been dealing with depression for the last few months, for multiple reasons (getting rejected by my crush, that's a whole different story. loss of self esteem, etc..) and just nowhere to cope. Its funny how I have nobody to talk to except people on the internet who I don't/ barely know. My 'friends' have never had dealt with depression or anything of the sort. I know compared to others my situation seems nothing big at all, but to me this is the second time with depression, but holy hell you'll never be ready for it. The girl I asked out is the only person that prevented me from suicidal actions, and still is. We still talk (pretty much everyday, with hugs and stuff, so that's nice.) and still I have feelings for her, she is my sun on a rainy day, my anti depressants ( I could go on but im not writing harry potter and the pubescence.) I try to do my best to be what she means to me to other people to make them smile, enjoy life. I don't want them to deal with the same I've felt. The reason why im saying this is that YOU are that to someone. YOU are someones dream, their knight in shining armor, you mean the world to them. Be Kind, be passionate with every word you say. Be aware of those around you. care for them, show them that they mean alot to you. that's whats gonna cheer them up, not some fake inspirational bull **** that comes from a speech.
Show them the good things in life, down to the tiniest things. 

Now I have to wait for someone to do that for me...

[Goussy]

Me when I had severe depression...

[Go_On_Shadow]

Me when I had severe depression...

Yeah bud, right there with you..

[GuruMeditationError]

@Go_On_Shadow I have depression.

 

Are you being treated for it? Have you been diagnosed?

 

Did you see a doctor yet?

 

It's a progressive illness and will only get worse without treatment. The only way to get back to the sunshine and out of the rain is really to get it treated?

[Go_On_Shadow]

@Go_On_Shadow I have depression.

 

Are you being treated for it? Have you been diagnosed?

 

Did you see a doctor yet?

 

It's a progressive illness and will only get worse without treatment. The only way to get back to the sunshine and out of the rainy day is to really to get it treated?

Yeah, told my doc about girl, just said be near hear and become great friends. Thats what ive been doing. Getting a checkup next month.

[GuruMeditationError]

 

Yeah, told my doc about girl, just said be near hear and become great friends. Thats what ive been doing. Getting a checkup next month.

 

 

So I'm guessing if you're still feeling the same or if the conditioned has worsened by the time of the review he'll either prescribe you something or send you for an assessment?

 

@Go_On_Shadow How long have you been feeling like this?

[Go_On_Shadow]

 

 

 

 

So I'm guessing if you're still feeling the same or if the conditioned has worsened he'll either prescribe you something or send you for an assessment?

 

Most likely yes

[GuruMeditationError]

Most likely yes

 

If it's persisted over months (according to your op?) then it's probably something you should definitely get looked at. If you don't it'll only get worse :0/ 

 

If you catch depression early you can counteract it, maybe even eradicate it, but it means engaging with the treatments and the medications (which some people are reluctant to do (there the ones who keep ending up back at the depression forums time and time again)) :0/

 

You should definitely stress to your doctor that you need help with it. Things might be different these days but it took me years to get a diagnosis (partly probably because I have a form of depression that's basically life long. I've always had it and so I didn't know it was a problem, it was only when I got really really ill that anything was done about me)...

 

...but having said that, sometimes you really do have to persist with it but that's not easy (when all you want to do is pull the covers over your head and sleep?) At least that's what it was like for me. :0/

[Go_On_Shadow]

If it's persisted over months (according to your op?) then it's probably something you should definitely get looked at. If you don't it'll only get worse :0/ 

 

If you catch depression early you can counteract it but it means engaging with the treatments and the medications (which some people are reluctant to do (there the ones who keep ending up back at the depression forums time and time again)) :0/

So far so good, honestly a lot better than before.thanks for all your worries though

[GuruMeditationError]

So far so good, honestly a lot better than before.thanks for all your worries though

 

That's okay. :0)

 

Just hope it helps?

 

Also, I edited the post (added a couple more things). Hoping it helps.  d  b

[Go_On_Shadow]

That's okay. :0)

 

Just hope it helps?

 

Also, I edited the post (added a couple more things). Hoping it helps.  d  b

thanks

[RyomaSJibenG]

you know after reading that long paragraph, i think i have depression myself

no friends or anything, there's nobody really, perhaps its just me being lonely here

 

but yea there are people on the internet which i could talk to which is nice

i don't know who you people are but your kindness is something i appreciate so much

 

thanks random citizen
 

[XTankSlayerX]

I've had severe depression. I approve of that quote.

Ot is indeed true that you in case yourself in a happy shell but you're as dead as roadkill inside.

OP if you're up for GTAV some time PM Me.

I too don't really have anyone anymore. Other than my parents. Which I can't spill my heart out to.

[zappian]

People that never had depression should shut the hell up.

I see a lot of keyboard warriors on this forum and I will take an opportunity here to address this.

Not talking to anyone on this thread but a lot of people here have said the cure to depression is to "toughen up" on another thread that was locked.

These people have no bloody idea what this entails , I have been depressed  and its awful  , you just dont want to do anything or see anyone  , its a very dark cloud that hangs over you and çompletly destroys your ability to feel or to think in any rational way.

And the people in my life dont help , always putting me down , always telling me I am shit . I dealt and deal with this on a daily bases and even tho they think its a joke for them it is not for me . People take pleasure on destroying someone with a low self esteem such as me and bringing them into a even bigger pit of despair.

I have been told to kill myself and been brought down in many occasions in many  ways.

And when you have no self esteem and are depressed its impossible to deal with the negativity.

I have had severe suicidal thoughts for a period of my life and while I am much better and happier now the scars remain.

[Tim Drake]

I don't want to self diagnose myself but I get really bad patches of sadness.

 

I reckon I am just self consciously looking for an excuse but usually I am fine and if one thing goes wrong in my day it all topples to shit.

 

Sorry if I offend anyone but thinking that I have it, I just wanted an opinion from some smart people

[SeriouslyMikey]

I don't show any feelings, and I didn't really when I was suffering from a mental breakdown that lead to depression. Though, I do agree with that statement, I kept in emotions for years, upon years leading from some things I have done in the past and some family members passing until they blew, leading to the breakdown. 

Neutral masterrace, one could say. 

 

Here's a small snip of my story, especially when it comes to friends. Maybe it's relatable in some way? 

As for friends, I unintentionally pushed mine away throughout the year of severity, and it only ended up with addictions to things like internet chat rooms and mumbo jumbo like that to help combat the feeling of isolation and the increasing depression that only lead to me not attending college and eventually dropping out after forcing myself through the first year. I didn't sleep either and often spent a week on no more than an hour or two of sleep every couple of nights, leading me to pass out in college lectures and whatnot. After three years now of no contact with said friends, I've grown a hatred for them because of my lack of understanding of, at the time, what I was doing to them because of the state I was in. Since then, I have had one text, and I fear that's all I'll get unless I somehow beat most of my social anxiety, which is a result of isolation and call one of them. All I'll say is that if a friend of yours is acting out of the ordinary, or you know is suffering, don't let them isolate themselves. 

 

First time I've actually said any of this. I often fear that people will just call me an attention whore like with a lot of people on the internet, so it just gets locked in. 

[Go_On_Shadow]

I've had severe depression. I approve of that quote.

Ot is indeed true that you in case yourself in a happy shell but you're as dead as roadkill inside.

OP if you're up for GTAV some time PM Me.

I too don't really have anyone anymore. Other than my parents. Which I can't spill my heart out to.

Well, I guess i can help you out with spilling out your heart, pm if you want.

[MrDynamicMan]

Wow. Luckily I have not had depression, but I hope you get happier. I know this'll probably sound as hollow as anyone on the Internet that ever speaks about something they haven't experienced, but we'll, it's not fun.

[GuruMeditationError]

I don't show any feelings, and I didn't really when I was suffering from a mental breakdown that lead to depression. Though, I do agree with that statement, I kept in emotions for years, upon years leading from some things I have done in the past and some family members passing until they blew, leading to the breakdown. 

Neutral masterrace, one could say. 

 

Here's a small snip of my story, especially when it comes to friends. Maybe it's relatable in some way? 

As for friends, I unintentionally pushed mine away throughout the year of severity, and it only ended up with addictions to things like internet chat rooms and mumbo jumbo like that to help combat the feeling of isolation and the increasing depression that only lead to me not attending college and eventually dropping out after forcing myself through the first year. I didn't sleep either and often spent a week on no more than an hour or two of sleep every couple of nights, leading me to pass out in college lectures and whatnot. After three years now of no contact with said friends, I've grown a hatred for them because of my lack of understanding of, at the time, what I was doing to them because of the state I was in. Since then, I have had one text, and I fear that's all I'll get unless I somehow beat most of my social anxiety, which is a result of isolation and call one of them. All I'll say is that if a friend of yours is acting out of the ordinary, or you know is suffering, don't let them isolate themselves. 

 

First time I've actually said any of this. I often fear that people will just call me an attention whore like with a lot of people on the internet, so it just gets locked in. 

 

Public forums aren't always the best places to deal with stuff like this, basically because there are so many people here that can enjoy hurting a person that expresses themselves in this way, or who just don't really understand that their stupid comments might actually be taken on face value.

 

I think I've definitely asked you this before but have you thought about getting counselling to talk about the stuff? I think it would really help you.

 

Also, I used to attend social anxiety support groups etc. through meetup.com. It seems that that could really help you to get to the point where you could start calling your friends again. :0/

 

I don't want to self diagnose myself but I get really bad patches of sadness.

 

I reckon I am just self consciously looking for an excuse but usually I am fine and if one thing goes wrong in my day it all topples to shit.

 

Sorry if I offend anyone but thinking that I have it, I just wanted an opinion from some smart people

 

Everyone gets down. The problem is if the feeling doesn't lift but just persists, then it's almost certainly the beginnings of a depression, and can only become worse. If you get a blue mood that doesn't lift it's something you need to get looked at (it's not always easy since when you're in that mood you find it difficult to motivate yourself to do anything).

 

People that never had depression should shut the hell up.

 

Do you think you might be heading that way again? I saw your pessimism thread?

[zappian]

Public forums aren't always the best places to deal with stuff like this, basically because there are so many people here that can enjoy hurting a person that expresses themselves in this way, or who just don't really understand that their stupid comments might actually be taken on face value.

 

I think I've definitely asked you this before but have you thought about getting counselling to talk about the stuff? I think it would really help you.

 

Also, I used to attend social anxiety support groups etc. through meetup.com. It seems that that could really help you to get to the point where you could start calling your friends again. :0/

 

 

Everyone gets down. The problem is if the feeling doesn't lift but just persists, then it's almost certainly the beginnings of a depression, and can only become worse. If you get a blue mood that doesn't lift it's something you need to get looked at (it's not always easy since when you're in that mood you find it difficult to motivate yourself to do anything).

 

 

Do you think you might be heading that way again? I saw your pessimism thread?

 

Nah I am much better now.

Always been pessimist tho , thats hard to change.