My departure from this forum

[scaryjam823]

I have been on this forum for nearly a year now. Browsing everyday, helping many with the knowledge I have gained over the years. I have learned a lot, I have taught a lot. This forum has helped me with my problems and has been my friend over the past several months. However I have had a lot of bad happen to me in the time I have been here. I have lost an ex fiance, lost my job for the past 3 months. Had my truck totaled, which cost me $20k in debt. Forcing me to bankruptcy. I have went to jail for defending my grandmother from someone abusive and facing trial on that. I lost my house and all my will left that I had. 

 

My emotional state has went nowhere except downhill. From suicidal thoughts, to suicidal attempts. Struggling everyday just to stay awake and not sleep. I have lost muscle and gained weight, which I worked hard to lose. Nearly 100lbs worth which has all came back from the depression I suffer. Sleepless nights, mornings when I don't want to be awake and so much more. 

 

This forum has been my friend through it all though, coming here in the mornings to help someone has been about the only thing I have had the drive to do. But all that negative has caught up with me. I have been an ass, especially today. While I consider myself an asset with my knowledge, I'm also a hindrance in the current state I'm in. As such I have decided to leave these forums for good, at least till I get better which may never come.  Some may have known my name, seen me around for a while. I know there's quite a few here who I have grown to respect and remember for their knowledge and posts.

 

I have just decided it is better for me to leave and let someone else help the people I would have than me continue this way. I probably have driven some off this forum, stopped others from becoming dedicated members because of my actions and for that I am sorry. I truly feel bad for the way I have been and see this as the only reconciliation. Maybe one day I will come back here, maybe some I have grown to respect will still be around if that ever happens. But for now, I am cutting ties from this part of my life. I doubt I will go on to any better, but at least I wont bring anyone else down with me. I will still watch linus' videos and support him through youtube, this part just has to come to an end.

 

I hope everyone here has a great time, learns everything they can and enjoys themselves the way I have. 

 

Farewell my friends.

 

@Enderman I owe you an apology especially.

[Jodomcfrodo]

Soon this forum will only have sub 500 posters on it. EVERYBODY IS LEAVING.

But anyway I hope you feel better soon and can come back. See you soon hopefully 

[xox]

I hope you are ok and may you have the best of luck in the future.

[Kerplex]

You'll be back.

[Kyuubixchidori]

thats a damn shame. you will be missed, remember to come lurk or come back and post sometime. trust me, your posts will be a lot more constructive then a lot we see around here!

[Clyne]

Good Luck!

[Thebman712]

gg

gl

hf

[elan2468]

Good Bye Old friend and may life lead you well

[Vacsol]

GLHF IRL

[Jobbe03]

Good luck in your future endeavors pal

 

When the going gets tough..

[Trik'Stari]

Sorry to hear your having problems, I wish you luck and you are always welcome here brah

[melias24]

Good luck M8, hope you can get your life back on track.

[Yummychickenblue]

I hope you get into a better position soon.

[eLucid]

Your mental well-being is far more important than a forum. I'm glad you've realized this.

 

@scaryjam823

 

Take care and don't give up!

[Flyguygamer]

Sorry to hear that. I really hope you can turn things around.

[Pesmerga]

I hope things get better.

[aidenrelkoff]

Soon this forum will only have sub 500 posters on it. EVERYBODY IS LEAVING.

But anyway I hope you feel better soon and can come back. See you soon hopefully 

im here for a lot longer, no plans of leaving, maybe one day ill be like WoodenMarker.

 

THE FORUM PIG IS HERE TO STAY!

[WinNut]

Even though I never knew you on the forum, good luck m8, remember to keep your head high through all of it, eventually it will end. Until then, may God be with you.

[KingKeith55]

I hope you will have fun playing Half Life 3

[Calavera]

Sad tovsee you go, wish you the best mate!

[Tech_Dreamer]

Damn! that's quite a story.  Well, i guess all we can say is good bye & a heartfelt thank you , we hope you find happiness in whatever you take on in like..

 

Take care of yourself. We will remember you, PS:lrk around sometime like some other "retirees*" do it's still a great forum

 

* i'm looking @ you askew

[Nyxathid]

Will be the one so say this : Rip LTTForums 

 

#Kappa

 

And I hope you get better 

[Boxrocket]

Just chill out dude.  Seriously make the conscious decision in your mind you are going to get better.  Don't make this forum your life.  Get out and live your life.  Realize that you are a prize. Why are you worried about all that goes on here?  Don't you know that anything and everything said in this forum effects you 0%?  Just chill, my friend killed himself because he was depressed and for the most ridiculous reasons just like yours. He just gave up.  It is harder to give up on life than it is to try man trust me.  Change your mindset now. Just be happy, healthy, and that you get to experience life. Try to figure out something fun to do during the meantime.  If you get bored, which you will, don't dwell on it, just keep moving.