What if my life was a heaven: a story about me

[deXxterlab97]

My name is Jack. I am a 20 year old who recently dropped out of college from a course I did not like and was forced to attend as there are no choice at that time. And here ia the story of my life.

This GIF I made from Episode 1 of Life is Strange: Before the Storm perfectly describes me: depressed and want to smash everything, or even myself.

After becoming a drop out I got so depressed that I attempted to suicide but did not work out as my will refused to cooperate with me. Fuck you. Yes you piece of mindful shit. And my family too for forcing me to study business instead of programming. 

 

Skip forward 3 months from the time I left my forum I got in touch with therapists and doctor to help me cope with depression. The thoughts of killing myself still occured but in a less serious degree. Other thoughts of wanting to desperately kill my love ones are still there just like killing myself.

 

As health began to improve I decided maybe it is a good time to relax myself and start serious on the forum as an experienced PC part list maker and occasional Life is Strange guru and blue colored expert.

 

As a final note: do not clutter the forum. Make this only post to discuss anything related to me. If you do make a new post I would have mod to remove and I am all seeing deXxterlab97 who online all the time and technically live here so you can't escape. Have some respect.

 

Thanks for reading.

[NoxiousOdor]

I'm glad you are getting better I'm sorry to hear that you are going through rough times, I wish you the best

 

I look forward to seeing some bluefluence on the forums. You gave me a lot of advice when I was building my computer and when it was done it occurred to me that my led fans were blue and I was going to show you but that was about 2 days after you left. 

 

Looking forward to seeing you around

[NoRomanBatmansAllowed]

It's great to see that you're back! I've been missing all the blue on the forums.

 

 

 

[TheReal_ist]

I  will never get why people listen to what their fucking parents have to say about there SCHOOLING. Unless they are paying for it which they most likely aren't than they can take there useless opinions and shove them right up there ass's. 

 

Your your own fucking person and if you let people make choices that affect you like you have just been. Things will get a lot fucking worst. The sooner you realize this the better your off. 

 

I'm glad your ok, and I hope this and my post will be your first step in the rest of your long life. Of not giving a FUCK what people think. We only have one life, and if you let some pathetic fucking cuck try and ruin that. Then they won, and you lost. Which isn't how I want my one and only sentient existence to go down.

How bout You?

 

Good Luck my man! 

[Eduard the weeb]

yeah my sister wants to study are in 4 years but my parents are like lol no because we got laws degrees and we're successful even though we never used them you should too even thought there parents paid for there college and me and my sis have to pay for are own college or get a scholarship RIP.

[Anjelllo]

You probably don’t recognize me but I saw the help you gave and influence you had on the forum, and I was kinda sad when you left. There actually was a pretty successful thread about your absence, idk if you saw it 

 

[deXxterlab97]

Just now, Anjelllo said:

You probably don’t recognize me but I saw the help you gave and influence you had on the forum, and I was kinda sad when you left. There actually was a pretty successful thread about your absence, idk if you saw it 

 

You had an anime avatar at one point i think

[deXxterlab97]

2 hours ago, bob51zhang said:

It's great to see that you're back! I've been missing all the blue on the forums.

 

 

 

I have not

[Damascus]

3 hours ago, Eduard the weeb said:

yeah my sister wants to study are in 4 years

Wut

[Eduard the weeb]

1 hour ago, Damascus said:

Wut

Because first 2 years college is all the same for everyone so you don't start learning stuff for your actuall occupation till later right?

[Damascus]

1 minute ago, Eduard the weeb said:

Because first 2 years college is all the same for everyone so you don't start learning stuff for your actuall occupation till later right?

Nope, I mean the first two years of literature and philosophy will be close but they'll be nothing like an electrical engineering or programming course.

[LienusLateTips]

Welcome back! Changed sig just for the occasion. Been missing the blue team competition on the forum.

[RyomaSJibenG]

ahh its the blue guy, i see you have comeback even stronger than before, even your font has become blue

[Bajantechnician]

Hey dude,

Its good to have you back

LMK if anything comes up and you need to talk to a random stranger on the internet lol

[SansVarnic]

-= Locked =-

 

Ok, so I understand the need to post this and nothing wrong with it.

That said this is better suited as a Status Update than as an Off-Topic post.