Depressed

[BlinkJinxYT]

I'm depressed af. My mother always scold me even if it's not my fault.My siblings are lazy af. I'm like a maid and when I'm tired they're like "Hey wash the dishes!" One time I almost suicide. I point a knife on my neck and I throw the knife on the floor cause I realized"Is it worth it?" And my mom don't even know that there is a fucking knife on my room.

And my father is a seaman so he don't know the full story whenever my mom tell shit about me. It was like carrying a weight and it gets heavier every time.

so yeah kill me pls

[beanhubbleday]

Just now, BlinkJinxYT said:

I'm depressed af. My mother always scold me even if it's not my fault.My siblings are lazy af. I'm like a maid and when I'm tired they're like "Hey wash the dishes!" One time I almost suicide. I point a knife on my neck and I throw the knife on the floor cause I realized"Is it worth it?" And my mom don't even know that there is a fucking knife on my room.

And my father is a seaman so he don't know the full story whenever my mom tell shit about me. It was like carrying a weight and it gets heavier every time.

so yeah kill me pls

Hey dude,

 

I don't know what's going on but I can assure you that suicide is never the answer, it just makes things a whole lot worse.

 

It will upset your family and friends and they'll feel worse for it. You may not feel it or know it but your family and friends love you.

 

Maybe try and get out of your house, go for walks, play games, spend time outside just do anything to take your mind off your depression.

 

Maybe see if you can speak to a counsellor?

 

Whatever you do, do not kill yourself - it really is not the answer.

 

Hope you begin to feel better soon and you can always PM me for help.

 

Kindest,

 

Jack.

 

[BlinkJinxYT]

1 minute ago, JackHubbleday said:

Hey dude,

 

I don't know what's going on but I can assure you that suicide is never the answer, it just makes things a whole lot worse.

 

It will upset your family and friends and they'll feel worse for it. You may not feel it or know it but your family and friends love you.

 

Maybe try and get out of your house, go for walks, play games, spend time outside just do anything to take your mind off your depression.

 

Maybe see if you can speak to a counsellor?

 

Whatever you do, do not kill yourself - it really is not the answer.

 

Hope you begin to feel better soon and you can always PM me for help.

 

Kindest,

 

Jack.

 

Uuhhmm.About going outside, play games...That's the worst! They get mad! At me even if it's only an hour of me playing dodgeball and tennis! Sometimes I play League of Legends.

 

[BlinkJinxYT]

Just now, BlinkJinxYT said:

Uuhhmm.About going outside, play games...That's the worst! They get mad! At me even if it's only an hour of me playing dodgeball and tennis! Sometimes I play League of Legends.

 

Also they thought I'm playing games on my phone but I watch LTT and any Science and Computer stuuffff!!

[BlinkJinxYT]

But still thank you.

[Oxydoreduction]

Man, don't kill yourself.

 

How old are you?

 

I know you can't choose your family and even if they piss you off or get mad at you or even lower you, better is to come and you can always choose your tribe among your friends.

 

There will be a time that things will change in a favorable way.

 

Even if they get mad at you when you go outside and see your friends, if doing this makes you happy, never hesitate to do it.

 

Feel free to also PM us for any help.

 

Don't loose hope and more important, have faith and trust in you.

 

 

 

[Nuluvius]

23 minutes ago, BlinkJinxYT said:

I point a knife on my neck...

Honestly, instead of turning your rage and negative feelings inwards try to turn them outwards, into accomplishing something for yourself i.e. getting a job/finding a way to get out of the situation or change it in some way.

24 minutes ago, BlinkJinxYT said:

so yeah kill me pls

Ultimately all you will achieve by damaging yourself is allowing them to win, and if you do it wrong (even if you do it right in some cases) you may well end up with a life ahead full of disability where you'll only end up depending on them even more. Essentially you are better than that, no?

 

Have you tried to communicate these feelings i.e. gathering everyone together and making them sit down and actually listen to you?

 

How old are you? I started work at 11... it gave me the cash and independence that I needed to start to change things.

[Teddy07]

Sports is so good, you won't believe it. I really enjoy jogging because you simply walk out of the door and start running (of course with the right shoes but I personally run nearly barefoot).

 

Building up your leg muscles takes some time so don't worry in the beginning. I couldn't run more than 10 min. at the start and now I am able to run 70 min. straight.

[DisguisedDemise]

6 hours ago, BlinkJinxYT said:

I'm depressed af. My mother always scold me even if it's not my fault.My siblings are lazy af. I'm like a maid and when I'm tired they're like "Hey wash the dishes!" One time I almost suicide. I point a knife on my neck and I throw the knife on the floor cause I realized"Is it worth it?" And my mom don't even know that there is a fucking knife on my room.

And my father is a seaman so he don't know the full story whenever my mom tell shit about me. It was like carrying a weight and it gets heavier every time.

so yeah kill me pls

To put it lightly, im going to assume youre young. And well, i may have not have gone through a situation fitting that description i do understand where youre coming from. Im the cliche bullied kid who never stood up for himself. And well, its sorta shit. 

 

But, not once should you ever think of suicide, im not going to make this about me but i want to say that whenever you think about suicide, think about everyone else. You may not understand right now and for a few years still. But when youre older and more independant, you will realise how much you will need them like they need you right now. Your parents and family clearly do love you, and you may not be having a good life experience at the moment but you need to understand that when you get to a shit place life can mainly only get better. 

 

My reccomendation is to make the best of a shit situation, you could do many things as stated before, make something of yourself. Set a goal and strive to achieve it, i know that when ytou achieve something it gives you self value (in my experience again i cant talk for you)

 

Even speak to a doctor or something. Something i found that often helps is talking about it, talk about it to someone who has no ties to your family. It seems like you have alot of bottled up emotions you need to release or even express. And that doesnt make you anything but human.

 

Dude if you have anything you wanna talk to me about, idec what time you message me you will get a reply.

Im Luke by the way