so today in health class we were talking about teen depression. on the power point, a lot of the symptoms i have were on the board such as lack of concentration, dropping grades, thoughts of suicide, distancing from friends, staying up at night and sleeping in the day. we watched a video on teen depression and i couldn't stop myself from crying. My "friends" im sure noticed my bloodshot eyes. but they wont say anything. i dont really consider any of my friends a true friend. at the lunch table i just put my headphones in and ignore them. i dont look at my grades because i know im failing classes but i honestly dont care. after health class i realized i actually have depression and now everything feels a lot different. nothing changed but a diagnosis. honestly the closest thing to a real friend is a guy i talk to online. im not sure why i became depressed. sometimes i wonder if people would care if i die but then i picture my family crying so i wouldnt want to put them through the pain. all i do is work and school. i dont do any extra curricular activities or hang out with friends after school. i usually am in my room on my computer. i lost interest in all of my hobbies and push everyone away and just watch anime now. i know im not asking for help but i felt that i just felt i needed to say that.