Depression

DrupieCards · November 3, 2015

OK I'm new here and I don't know why I am talking about it here of all places but here goes.

Its late on a Monday and I'm in the middle of a pretty bad bout. I keep dwelling on how I'm always alone, crummy situation at work, low self-esteem ect... I don't have any reason really to be unhappy. The job I have is fun, I make OK money I'm not stressed about bills. And yet I'm always drifting between neutral and sad. It's like I'm existing not living.

There are things that make me different, visible things. I can tell they make people nervous around me. There are signs people give and I can always tell. It hurts so much because I can't change them. I'm not a bad person.

I've always been in to computers. I know what to expect. Do everything right and they are a lot of fun, if something goes wrong it's not hard to figure out. They are kinda the thing I ran away to, they were aways an escape.

I do mean to be melodramatic. I've been thinking about this stuff a lot. It just seems be getting harder and harder to get other of. Might not be the best intro to a new community, but I had to get it out.

KraftDinner · November 3, 2015

OK I'm new here and I don't know why I am talking about it here of all places but here goes.

Its late on a Monday and I'm in the middle of a pretty bad bout. I keep dwelling on how I'm always alone, crummy situation at work, low self-esteem ect... I don't have any reason really to be unhappy. The job I have is fun, I make OK money I'm not stressed about bills. And yet I'm always drifting between neutral and sad. It's like I'm existing not living.

There are things that make me different, visible things. I can tell they make people nervous around me. There are signs people give and I can always tell. It hurts so much because I can't change them. I'm not a bad person.

I've always been in to computers. I know what to expect. Do everything right and they are a lot of fun, if something goes wrong it's not hard to figure out. They are kinda the thing I ran away to, they were aways an escape.

I do mean to be melodramatic. I've been thinking about this stuff a lot. It just seems be getting harder and harder to get other of. Might not be the best intro to a new community, but I had to get it out.

Hey man don't worry about it, it's tough when you got nobody to talk to, so posting this in off topic is fine. As for what other people think, don't concern yourself with that, whatever visible thing you're talking about that makes you feel different isn't worth dwelling on. Surround yourself with people that enjoy your company and enjoy life, you have a limited time on this planet and there's no point dwelling over shit like this, go out and do what you love! I know I may sound like im telling you to 'suck it up and carry on' but I know what it's like to be in such a shitty position and it's much easier said than done, but keep your head up there's so much more to life than these minuscule problems! I hope this helps

DannyRyu · November 3, 2015

OK I'm new here and I don't know why I am talking about it here of all places but here goes.

Its late on a Monday and I'm in the middle of a pretty bad bout. I keep dwelling on how I'm always alone, crummy situation at work, low self-esteem ect... I don't have any reason really to be unhappy. The job I have is fun, I make OK money I'm not stressed about bills. And yet I'm always drifting between neutral and sad. It's like I'm existing not living.

There are things that make me different, visible things. I can tell they make people nervous around me. There are signs people give and I can always tell. It hurts so much because I can't change them. I'm not a bad person.

I've always been in to computers. I know what to expect. Do everything right and they are a lot of fun, if something goes wrong it's not hard to figure out. They are kinda the thing I ran away to, they were aways an escape.

I do mean to be melodramatic. I've been thinking about this stuff a lot. It just seems be getting harder and harder to get other of. Might not be the best intro to a new community, but I had to get it out.

Honestly just be you're self and don't care about other people and take up a hobby or a sport and find other people with the same interests. You can't care about how other people think of you, just need to learn to not give a fuck but not in a bad way. Taking up sports is always good a way to lower stress, Also Running and hitting the Weights are always good.

Finding something you are good at is always a good way to increase self esteem

ConnorDahne · November 3, 2015

The community here is actually pretty accepting and open..
Come join us in a discussion about amd, nvidia, and other tech stuff and relax.

Things always get better, I've been struggling with depression myself.
When you feel this low, you can only go up right??
If you'd like feel free to pm me, or talk to me on this post.

We'll get you through this, it's just a rough patch