I gave up on that when I left the womb

dude same

hmm..

I keep relapsing on trying to be useful. Each time the outcome is more or less the same (not great or just plain bad) which re-enforces my "why do I even bother" attitude.

ATM my only serious contribution to society is helping people on this forum but even that doesn't always go as planned.

Yup. I just lie to myself that im useful tho so i dont feel bad lol