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So bloody stressed, I only have myself to blame but I can't really stop either.

  • I go to work as per usual
  • Get home from job to work on my personal project / work on personal project at weekends
  • Simultaneously try to keep learning new code things while working on personal project
  • Trying to improve public speaking skills by
    • Telling a short story at an open mic night
    • Assisting in organising a local coding meetup in which I can practice giving talks

I couldn't bring myself to work on my personal project today, I tried to for several hours but I just couldn't.

Despite that I felt stressed the whole day, despite not doing anything stressful I just couldn't stop stressing.

Tried gaming, watching videos, getting outside but I've just had this feeling all day like there's just too much 'going on' around me.

Shut myself in the bedroom for a while with a pillow over my head to try and get that feeling of shutting everything out which kinda helped but not much

  1. dizmo

    dizmo

    Sometimes you just need a day or two to yourself ? Can't go full bore all the time.

  2. camjocotem

    camjocotem

    Seems to be that way haha.

    But it's just, if me and my wife are going to move into a bigger house within the next few years (at least an ideal one) then we'll need more money.

     

    So I worked out how much extra we'd need on top of our full-time jobs for the type of house we were looking at.

    I've been on the lookout for contract work I could do on evenings or weekends which is a long shot but I'm asking about it.

    In the meantime I've been working on a web app so at the very least there's a chance when it's done that I'll get some income from that.

     

    Plus feel bad about my parents, don't get to see them that often (I live/work abroad now) so I'm thinking if I could just work for myself then I wouldn't be tied to a physical location and I could visit whenever I want instead of planning holidays (and I could work off my laptop if I really needed to)

    But even then when I'm planning holidays I'm doing that to see my parents / other events or things that need doing and get very little to take to myself

  3. dizmo

    dizmo

    If you have to stretch yourself that thin, can you really afford to move into a bigger place? There isn't much point in increasing your living footprint if it brings a lot of added stress and is above what you can actually currently afford. Why be house poor?

  4. camjocotem

    camjocotem

    I'd be able to afford the monthly cost fine, it's just a large initial upfront deposit that's the problem haha xP

    After that I'd be able to go back to my regular job

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