Little bit Interesting story from the past day , I went to a rather expensive restaurant to treat myself for something i got through , wasn't pre-arranged but organized it just in time, they seated me somewhat the near middle region of the hallway or whatever in a family table that could seat 4 or 5 people easily & almost every single seating around me was filled with people & all of them of em had a couple together or someone close with them , most of them extremely good looking & pretty gorgeous like models , extremely well dressed & few old people .  And i was the only 'single' person there secluded eating alone . The occasional random eye contact & friendly awkward smiles from near tables . it felt okay & not okay .it was very quiet & really good , people weren't talking out loud to be heard like you wouldn't be able to eaves drop on the conversation ,  but you can hear them talking, but  every faint little chipping noise i made & while i was eating was sounding like a detonation going on in my mind , never been so nervous for something simple like eating some food . every single thing felt wrong with me , my posture , my hair, how long i kept my eyes on one spot , where my hands are, how to stay silent staring at nothing while they prepare the food (taking the phone out & staring at it would seem bad), shit got amplified like a ton. it's like getting claustrophobic weirdly in an open space . after all that the total came around to a price of a lets just say that you could buy 2 or 3 brand new gaming mice with that . i wasn't sure what i was supposed to feel , but it was a good feeling .

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