What do you do....

[UrbanFreestyle]

Hi crew, i know that forums can be the WORST place to ask for advice / feedback on mental health issues due to trolls etc. But i'm just curious to see if anyone else struggles with themselves?

Sometimes i have some really dark thoughts. These can come at any time. I have been driving my car and thought "i wonder what would happen if i just drove off the road right now" thoughts of suicide while sat at my desk. getting very angry and feeling like freaking out but all the time i hold it back, I used to self harm and have relapses recently. hearing voices isn't uncommon. I haven't acted on any of these thoughts and always just carried on as normal hiding my thoughts / feelings from people as i don't really have anyone to talk to that i trust that much. 

 

I spoke to my doc about it and got put on fluoxetine low dose and by the 5th or 6th week i had tripled my own dose but still wasn't feeling any different. 

 

What would you do? do you have issues that you cant talk to anyone about? how do you carry on?

 

BTW don't worry i don't need reporting to suicide prevention etc. I'm ok, i promise.

[Mutoh]

You should talk to your doctor. Nobody here is a health professional.

 

 

Increasing your dose without the consent of your doctor is also asking for trouble. If you find your medication isnt working then you should tell your doctor and they can switch you off into something that may actually work. 

 

You really need to tell your doctor everything. How you feel when on your medication, if its working or making it worse. If you dont let them know, they cant really adjust things and help you find something that works for you.

 

 

 

[aezakmi]

There's only 1 major troll at this forum and hopefully he won't read this kind of topics, never seen him in offtopic, for now. The rest are a harmless minority so I wouldn't worry.

 

Not a big fan of pills since a friend ended up killing himself due to them (overdose) and since he started taking them his state was deteriorating both mentally and physically (hands shaking, unable to walk straight, etc) the doctor warned him about these side effects and that ended up being worse than his anxiety disorder.

 

I was feeling depressed in high school but never went to a doctor or took pills since I knew what could happen to me if I did and after a few months the feeling just vanished. Drugs like that are highly addictive so I can only tell you to stop increasing your dose, it's like with any drug, your body will develop dependency of it and that's bad. Avoid mixing it with other pills, alcohol or MJ since it'll only get worse. Good luck

[Benjeh]

49 minutes ago, UrbanFreestyle said:

Hi crew, i know that forums can be the WORST place to ask for advice / feedback on mental health issues due to trolls etc. But i'm just curious to see if anyone else struggles with themselves?

Sometimes i have some really dark thoughts. These can come at any time. I have been driving my car and thought "i wonder what would happen if i just drove off the road right now" thoughts of suicide while sat at my desk. getting very angry and feeling like freaking out but all the time i hold it back, I used to self harm and have relapses recently. hearing voices isn't uncommon. I haven't acted on any of these thoughts and always just carried on as normal hiding my thoughts / feelings from people as i don't really have anyone to talk to that i trust that much. 

 

I spoke to my doc about it and got put on fluoxetine low dose and by the 5th or 6th week i had tripled my own dose but still wasn't feeling any different. 

 

What would you do? do you have issues that you cant talk to anyone about? how do you carry on?

 

BTW don't worry i don't need reporting to suicide prevention etc. I'm ok, i promise.

I'll PM you.

7 minutes ago, aezakmi said:

There's only 1 major troll at this forum and hopefully he won't read this kind of topics, never seen him in offtopic, for now. The rest are a harmless minority so I wouldn't worry.

 

Not a big fan of pills since a friend ended up killing himself due to them (overdose) and since he started taking them his state was deteriorating both mentally and physically (hands shaking, unable to walk straight, etc) the doctor warned him about these side effects and that ended up being worse than his anxiety disorder.

 

I was feeling depressed in high school but never went to a doctor or took pills since I knew what could happen to me if I did and after a few months the feeling just vanished. Drugs like that are highly addictive so I can only tell you to stop increasing your dose, it's like with any drug, your body will develop dependency of it and that's bad. Avoid mixing it with other pills, alcohol or MJ since it'll only get worse. Good luck

I'm sorry for your loss, not all anti depressants are addictive, I go on and off mine depending on if i'm coping or not. There are different types that affect people differently.

[UrbanFreestyle]

Thanks, sorry to hear about your friend. I gave up on the pills as they didn't seem to be doing anything. I have been going for about 2 years now without anything. I don't like the wording depression as it seems like everyone is 'depressed' and it gets thrown around a lot. I have done counseling and that sucked and made things worse. 

One thing that seems to have been helping a bit has been meditation.

[Agonizel]

Those dark thoughts you have is an ok thing to have, I don't think you're ill. Doctors aren't trained for human interaction as well as we think.

Considering you feel that uneasy, I'd suggest you see a psychologist. A good therapy is superior to sole medication.
Maybe you could even visit a psychiatrist at the same time and combine medication with therapy in a way that progressively takes you off the pills.

That way, you can obtain durable results with very little risk of relapse.

[Agonizel]

1 hour ago, Mutoh said:

Nobody here is a health professional.

1 more year for you to be wrong

[Mutoh]

28 minutes ago, Beer_Nontitju said:

1 more year for you to be wrong

Sure, but then you should know as well as anybody that you really wouldn't be able to viably treat him over the web considering he wouldn't be your patient, you wouldn't have access to his records and pretty much just have to go on hearsay for a diagnosis which isn't ideal. Of course there are doctors or people looking at getting into the field here but the point being moreso that just being a doctor doesn't mean you're his doctor! 

 

 

Good luck though and early congratulations!

 

[imreloadin]

2 hours ago, UrbanFreestyle said:

Hi crew, i know that forums can be the WORST place to ask for advice / feedback on mental health issues due to trolls etc. But i'm just curious to see if anyone else struggles with themselves?

Sometimes i have some really dark thoughts. These can come at any time. I have been driving my car and thought "i wonder what would happen if i just drove off the road right now" thoughts of suicide while sat at my desk. getting very angry and feeling like freaking out but all the time i hold it back, I used to self harm and have relapses recently. hearing voices isn't uncommon. I haven't acted on any of these thoughts and always just carried on as normal hiding my thoughts / feelings from people as i don't really have anyone to talk to that i trust that much. 

 

I spoke to my doc about it and got put on fluoxetine low dose and by the 5th or 6th week i had tripled my own dose but still wasn't feeling any different. 

 

What would you do? do you have issues that you cant talk to anyone about? how do you carry on?

 

BTW don't worry i don't need reporting to suicide prevention etc. I'm ok, i promise.

Honestly the best advice is to keep talking with your doctor. Let them know that you're not feeling any different and then they can make the choice to up your dose or change you to something different. Don't just make that choice on your own as brain chemistry isn't something you want to just go all wild west on making your own choices about.

1 hour ago, aezakmi said:

There's only 1 major troll at this forum

Who is it?

[Guest]

Gotta say sometimes I think about my death quite a lot. It has been creeping up on me lately, usually at night. Have been considering seeing a counselor or something about it, not sure if it’s normal or not.

 

Sometimes it feels like a wave of dread, and I don’t know why I feel it, it is scary. I just think one day, it will all go snap and be gone. 

 

Ive had thoughts like this since I was a kid, and never told anyone apart from this. IDK it doesn’t feel like depression, quite often I’ve had a lovely day and then it all suddenly goes downhill. If I’m busy, then often I just try and forget it. 

[SzaboAttila]

1 hour ago, aezakmi said:

There's only 1 major troll at this forum and hopefully he won't read this kind of topics, never seen him in offtopic, for now. The rest are a harmless minority so I wouldn't worry.

 

Not a big fan of pills since a friend ended up killing himself due to them (overdose) and since he started taking them his state was deteriorating both mentally and physically (hands shaking, unable to walk straight, etc) the doctor warned him about these side effects and that ended up being worse than his anxiety disorder.

 

I was feeling depressed in high school but never went to a doctor or took pills since I knew what could happen to me if I did and after a few months the feeling just vanished. Drugs like that are highly addictive so I can only tell you to stop increasing your dose, it's like with any drug, your body will develop dependency of it and that's bad. Avoid mixing it with other pills, alcohol or MJ since it'll only get worse. Good luck

Couldnt agree more with the last part, I study pharmacy, and I only took pills, when I have really bad pain, most medicines have some sort of a bad side effect, and harm your organs and I always tell my family and parents to dont take pills unless its necessary.

[Kallahan11]

You should talk to your doctor about not seeing any improvement on fluoxetine. Pills are not all the same thing, they do not all work the same way. The reality of depression is any one treatment has like a 30-50% chance of success and they generally take 4-6 weeks before anything happens. It's a matter of taking the time to find the right treatment, a psychologist is a good starting point as CBT (Cognitive behavioral therapy) is a good non-drug starting point.

[mxk]

1 hour ago, imreloadin said:

Who is it?

drinklime

 

/s

[UrbanFreestyle]

Thanks for all the replies,.

I think it's good to open up and to @floofer well done. it takes a heck of a lot of courage.

I think i'll book in with my doc when i get time. Also just changed jobs to see if that helps. I work in IT and have been fighting in my old company to get changes made to make it better, more efficient and more secure however that has meant often working 7-9 and then figuring other stuff (work related) in my own time and was definately putting myself under more stress than i should have.

[Techstorm970]

On 3/7/2019 at 11:19 AM, floofer said:

Gotta say sometimes I think about my death quite a lot. It has been creeping up on me lately, usually at night. Have been considering seeing a counselor or something about it, not sure if it’s normal or not.

 

Sometimes it feels like a wave of dread, and I don’t know why I feel it, it is scary. I just think one day, it will all go snap and be gone. 

 

Ive had thoughts like this since I was a kid, and never told anyone apart from this. IDK it doesn’t feel like depression, quite often I’ve had a lovely day and then it all suddenly goes downhill. If I’m busy, then often I just try and forget it. 

I think that just boils down to a phobia of death.  I would talk to someone you trust about it, but I wouldn't worry about it too much beyond that.

[wasab]

I have thoughts, very dark thoughts. I dream of murdering kittens in my sleep and feel the urge to throw a puppy into a high RPM washing machine. 

[PlayStation 2]

While I'm not gonna give you any useful health advice, I guess I'd like to share that, frankly, I look down upon myself very harshly. Basically, to the point where I have really bad thoughts of shooting up where I work or just killing myself in front of my parents. Thank fuck that I actually can't bring myself up to do that.

I don't try to burden anyone with my problems, because they've got their own. I'll deal with the way I feel about myself by myself.

[LinusOnLine]

On 3/7/2019 at 5:54 PM, Benjeh said:

I'll PM you.

I'm sorry for your loss, not all anti depressants are addictive, I go on and off mine depending on if i'm coping or not. There are different types that affect people differently.

There are actually very few anti depressants that are addictive. If they are they are usually for anxiety and not depressions. For people like me I have to eat them because the part in my brain that is supposed to make serotonin is not working. With them I work perfectly without no one would like to be anywhere near me

[Guest]

Whenever I feel down... 

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