Carathas

Hi Anthony! I'm glad you've seen this post. I never wanted to be a martyr for the cause of getting sober but honestly, you really did inspire me. I really appreciate all the advice you've offered me, and I'm glad that I've managed to show you how you can make a difference in someone's life. I know it won't be easy, every day I'm struggling to fight off the urge to go get a few beers and a pack of smokes. The primary reason I posted this here was to have a level that's accountable beyond my family. I'm still too embarrassed to approach them with this issue but I feel like the LTT family will keep me straight. I appreciate all your advice and It'll follow me every step of the way. All I can say right now is this: I will continue to work on my issues as a habitual alcohol abuser to be better, and hopefully, indirectly, we can beat our vices together!

I need to thank you from the bottom of my heart! Because of you, I went to a doctor today and spoke to them about my issues, honestly and totally. Thankfully (I guess) I'm not an alcoholic but I am a habitual alcohol abuser. If it wasn't for you, I'd have tried to go cold turkey and probably would've ended up in a very bad place. I totally understand that you wouldn't believe how bad my drinking had become but unfortunately it's true and to be honest, I may have downplayed my drinking to be less embarrassing. It's insidious. I creeps up on you and you dont even realise.

Yeeeeeeeeap. I'm working on a huge server migration now. Just wish I wasn't half drunk when I did it all, because I can't remember how we approached it

This speaks to me miles! I would have 3 or 4 7/8% beers on my train journey home. Looked like an absolute monster. How are you doing now?

Are you working in tech? I have a huge desire to spark a smoke whenever I'm stuck on a job!

Totally agree, but to me, I wasn't an addict if i wasn't smoking cigarettes! and a lot of people around me treated me the same! I vaped for a bit but found it hard to maintain.

unfortunately I don't think that works for me, when I have one drink, I want more. Today, I had a couple of sips and saw Anthony talking about his issue with weightloss and poured my alcohol away. I don't think I'm a person who can do moderation, usually I will have a sip of alcohol, then keep drinking till I'm passed out. I won't let that happen anymore. Usually I'm the person who has one beer then doesn't stop until i'm being carried out of the bar / pub. It's embarrassing to say the least.

The fact that you even spent the time to reply is something I appreciate! And your grandpa is correct, I need to think about my future and the people who I love. Its selfish to remove myself for a quick puff of this or that.

Why am I making this post? So I wanted to make a post here after Anthony discussed his issue with weightloss issue and quite honestly, it affected me! After watching the latest video and having Anthony talk so openly about his weight issues, it gave me a sudden glimps of clarity. I'm an alcoholic, and I don't mean that in the sense of "I need a drink to get me through the day" but I'm happy to sit there and drink 8 pints of beer and then jump on to 4 or 5 double whiskeys until I can't remember going to bed. On top of that, I am a smoker! Not in the sense of smoking 20 marlboro a day, because I was far to good for that. I smoked 5 half corona cigars a day, because smoking cigars clearly meant that I was better than cigarette smokers, right? Wrong. I'm an idiot. I spend on average CAD$150 a week on my terrible habits. What Is My Endgoal? So I want to quit everything. I'm not an idiot and I understand that this could be very bad for me, alcoholics suffer horrendous withdrawal sympthoms and I expect that I will suffer a lot of these issues. Last time I had a drink was maybe 20 minutes for the latest LTT video came out and I'm already craving a drink. I would kill a small child for a quadruple whiskey right now but it's not going to happen. What do I want? Honestly nothing, I'm here to support Anthony, but if you guys have had to deal with this stuff and have tips, then feel free to send them my way. I'm done with this shitty life. I'm done with underperforming and waking up, not knowing how I got to bed or why I feel so terrible each morning. I will try my best to update this thread for every day that I stay clean, I really hope that someone else who is struggling will be able to see this and come to me.