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Kryptic BladeZz

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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from BOT Edward in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    Thanks man I really appreciate it. Comments like these are what keeps me motivated and doing what I'm doing.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from mrchow19910319 in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I just need to get this all out.
     
    Last year was a tough year for me, and it was all my fault. I don't have any idea why I'm posting this on here, but here I am. Guess I want to get it off my chest. (Gonna keep it short.)
    I was diagnosed with depression, and none of the medications would help me so I took painkillers almost every day before school, at first took ones that were prescribed to my deceased father (I'm pretty sure he was addicted, he needed them or he could barely get out of bed, often times taking more than the dose given to him, so he had about 3 different kinds). I almost ran out, but not a week later my mom fell and broke her wrist. She was prescribed hydrocodone/apap and took those until she didn't need them so I started taking those after I'd ran out of my other ones so I could stay "happy". I went through 3/4 of the school year taking pills and not feeling any guilt for it. I gained about 30 pounds because I would just eat, eat, and eat more. December is when everything hit me like a fucking train. I decided to get drunk on straight vodka. Friend was over so he drank a little bit and I probably drank about 3/4 of a Liter. I chased 4 Hydrocodone down with it, don't remember much after that. I slightly, barely woke up to my mom screaming and crying, don't remember what happened after that. I woke up once again, but this time in the ER. I was informed that I could've died for doing what I did. I lied about my friend and said he didn't drink any; didn't want to get him in trouble. I'm really thankful he got my mom when he did or I could quite possibly be dead right now. Anyways, I felt sooooo much guilt after putting my mom and my friend through that, which was a good thing. I decided to change my life around and being supported by my mother and my friends I got off the painkillers and started dieting and exercising. I lost about 50-60 pounds up to now, still working at it. Haven't taken any more painkillers since then, only smoking weed with a few friends at most once a month. I've been getting into music production for the past few months and have made $350 total ghost producing for random people. I'm just really happy and proud with myself and feel like at least getting my story out somewhere idk. Btw this all happened when I was 15, I'm 16 now. 
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from mrchow19910319 in invasion   
    Great, after someone said they check the toilet seat for spiders I've been doing it for about 2 years now. Now I'm going to get into the habit of checking headphones x'D thanks.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Chrizl1990 in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I just need to get this all out.
     
    Last year was a tough year for me, and it was all my fault. I don't have any idea why I'm posting this on here, but here I am. Guess I want to get it off my chest. (Gonna keep it short.)
    I was diagnosed with depression, and none of the medications would help me so I took painkillers almost every day before school, at first took ones that were prescribed to my deceased father (I'm pretty sure he was addicted, he needed them or he could barely get out of bed, often times taking more than the dose given to him, so he had about 3 different kinds). I almost ran out, but not a week later my mom fell and broke her wrist. She was prescribed hydrocodone/apap and took those until she didn't need them so I started taking those after I'd ran out of my other ones so I could stay "happy". I went through 3/4 of the school year taking pills and not feeling any guilt for it. I gained about 30 pounds because I would just eat, eat, and eat more. December is when everything hit me like a fucking train. I decided to get drunk on straight vodka. Friend was over so he drank a little bit and I probably drank about 3/4 of a Liter. I chased 4 Hydrocodone down with it, don't remember much after that. I slightly, barely woke up to my mom screaming and crying, don't remember what happened after that. I woke up once again, but this time in the ER. I was informed that I could've died for doing what I did. I lied about my friend and said he didn't drink any; didn't want to get him in trouble. I'm really thankful he got my mom when he did or I could quite possibly be dead right now. Anyways, I felt sooooo much guilt after putting my mom and my friend through that, which was a good thing. I decided to change my life around and being supported by my mother and my friends I got off the painkillers and started dieting and exercising. I lost about 50-60 pounds up to now, still working at it. Haven't taken any more painkillers since then, only smoking weed with a few friends at most once a month. I've been getting into music production for the past few months and have made $350 total ghost producing for random people. I'm just really happy and proud with myself and feel like at least getting my story out somewhere idk. Btw this all happened when I was 15, I'm 16 now. 
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from mrchow19910319 in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I used to put my stuff on Soundcloud, but with ghost producing comes contracts. (Not really "legal" contracts but just me digitally signing a document typed up by the client.) 
     
    I mainly produce House and Progressive House, but sometimes I like to experiment with Chillstep and other genres of EDM. I use FL Studio and sometimes mess with Ableton to produce.
     
    Thanks for the support man!
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from GooDBoY920 in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I just need to get this all out.
     
    Last year was a tough year for me, and it was all my fault. I don't have any idea why I'm posting this on here, but here I am. Guess I want to get it off my chest. (Gonna keep it short.)
    I was diagnosed with depression, and none of the medications would help me so I took painkillers almost every day before school, at first took ones that were prescribed to my deceased father (I'm pretty sure he was addicted, he needed them or he could barely get out of bed, often times taking more than the dose given to him, so he had about 3 different kinds). I almost ran out, but not a week later my mom fell and broke her wrist. She was prescribed hydrocodone/apap and took those until she didn't need them so I started taking those after I'd ran out of my other ones so I could stay "happy". I went through 3/4 of the school year taking pills and not feeling any guilt for it. I gained about 30 pounds because I would just eat, eat, and eat more. December is when everything hit me like a fucking train. I decided to get drunk on straight vodka. Friend was over so he drank a little bit and I probably drank about 3/4 of a Liter. I chased 4 Hydrocodone down with it, don't remember much after that. I slightly, barely woke up to my mom screaming and crying, don't remember what happened after that. I woke up once again, but this time in the ER. I was informed that I could've died for doing what I did. I lied about my friend and said he didn't drink any; didn't want to get him in trouble. I'm really thankful he got my mom when he did or I could quite possibly be dead right now. Anyways, I felt sooooo much guilt after putting my mom and my friend through that, which was a good thing. I decided to change my life around and being supported by my mother and my friends I got off the painkillers and started dieting and exercising. I lost about 50-60 pounds up to now, still working at it. Haven't taken any more painkillers since then, only smoking weed with a few friends at most once a month. I've been getting into music production for the past few months and have made $350 total ghost producing for random people. I'm just really happy and proud with myself and feel like at least getting my story out somewhere idk. Btw this all happened when I was 15, I'm 16 now. 
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Clonzoo in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I just need to get this all out.
     
    Last year was a tough year for me, and it was all my fault. I don't have any idea why I'm posting this on here, but here I am. Guess I want to get it off my chest. (Gonna keep it short.)
    I was diagnosed with depression, and none of the medications would help me so I took painkillers almost every day before school, at first took ones that were prescribed to my deceased father (I'm pretty sure he was addicted, he needed them or he could barely get out of bed, often times taking more than the dose given to him, so he had about 3 different kinds). I almost ran out, but not a week later my mom fell and broke her wrist. She was prescribed hydrocodone/apap and took those until she didn't need them so I started taking those after I'd ran out of my other ones so I could stay "happy". I went through 3/4 of the school year taking pills and not feeling any guilt for it. I gained about 30 pounds because I would just eat, eat, and eat more. December is when everything hit me like a fucking train. I decided to get drunk on straight vodka. Friend was over so he drank a little bit and I probably drank about 3/4 of a Liter. I chased 4 Hydrocodone down with it, don't remember much after that. I slightly, barely woke up to my mom screaming and crying, don't remember what happened after that. I woke up once again, but this time in the ER. I was informed that I could've died for doing what I did. I lied about my friend and said he didn't drink any; didn't want to get him in trouble. I'm really thankful he got my mom when he did or I could quite possibly be dead right now. Anyways, I felt sooooo much guilt after putting my mom and my friend through that, which was a good thing. I decided to change my life around and being supported by my mother and my friends I got off the painkillers and started dieting and exercising. I lost about 50-60 pounds up to now, still working at it. Haven't taken any more painkillers since then, only smoking weed with a few friends at most once a month. I've been getting into music production for the past few months and have made $350 total ghost producing for random people. I'm just really happy and proud with myself and feel like at least getting my story out somewhere idk. Btw this all happened when I was 15, I'm 16 now. 
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Hackentosher in Maybe too personal? IDK   
    I used to put my stuff on Soundcloud, but with ghost producing comes contracts. (Not really "legal" contracts but just me digitally signing a document typed up by the client.) 
     
    I mainly produce House and Progressive House, but sometimes I like to experiment with Chillstep and other genres of EDM. I use FL Studio and sometimes mess with Ableton to produce.
     
    Thanks for the support man!
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from ThinkWithPortals in REALLY Happy With Myself   
    Thanks man! My goal is to at most 180 before the Summer ends which will be fairly easy as long as I keep going long and hard! Drinking vegetable and kale smoothies is TERRIBLE at first but once I got used to them I quite enjoy the taste. Got acquired to it in about 3 weeks of drinking once every morning and lunch time.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Cavi in Will it fit? (Cooler Master Hyper 212x)   
    It looks like you can move the fan up to make sure it clears the sticks. That's what I did with my EVO anyway and it works like a charm.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from handymanshandle in REALLY Happy With Myself   
    I've never really been comfortable in my own body until I learned to accept what I have and do as much as I can to change it. I honestly don't know why I'm coming here for this but oh well. I started running on the elliptical and dieting in January at around 255 pounds. Since then I've lost over 60 pounds and keep on losing weight. I've been very happy with myself and even more motivated than ever; continuing to shed the pounds. Just ran 15 miles in about an hour and 15 minutes and my feet are killing me, definitely going to be blistered tomorrow (even though it is 3 in the morning posting this)  but gotta toughen them up if I want to continue going for long distances. I'm putting this out there for anyone who isn't very motivated to lose weight but really wants to. Once you start doing it and keep at it, it really is hard to stop because of the mood boosts and just general improvement in almost everything. Just take my advice and start; at least try. Thanks! :DDDDDD
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Real_PhillBert in Data Encryption Apple - FBI (Survey)   
    Fixed
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Steven9595 in 1080p - 60hz vs 144hz (i5-6600K,R9 390)   
    I switched from 60 to 144hz and I can tell you right now I CANNOT go back to 60hz. 144hz>1440p/IPS for me.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from N64CUBE in 1080p - 60hz vs 144hz (i5-6600K,R9 390)   
    I switched from 60 to 144hz and I can tell you right now I CANNOT go back to 60hz. 144hz>1440p/IPS for me.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Equlizer in 1080p - 60hz vs 144hz (i5-6600K,R9 390)   
    I switched from 60 to 144hz and I can tell you right now I CANNOT go back to 60hz. 144hz>1440p/IPS for me.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from byalexandr in What to do with a Windows Vista VM   
    Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites Midi. Hahaha my favorite was the Windows 7 destruction.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Shoob in What to do with a Windows Vista VM   
    Find an Indian scammer that will "fix your computer" and follow his instructions, but get his IP in the process.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from jameshumphries47 in What to do with a Windows Vista VM   
    Find an Indian scammer that will "fix your computer" and follow his instructions, but get his IP in the process.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from mynameajeff in What to do with a Windows Vista VM   
    Find an Indian scammer that will "fix your computer" and follow his instructions, but get his IP in the process.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from ionbasa in Iphone 6s Plus Vs. Nexus 6P Vs. S6 Edge Plus   
    You basically nailed it. I used to use an Android phone, but I recently switched to an iPhone 6S Plus. I'm not an Android hater though. 
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Puma911 in new year resolutions   
    No drugs or alcohol, A's and B's in school. Don't do stupid shit that I'll regret.
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    Kryptic BladeZz reacted to Nuluvius in Friend shot his first deer!   
    Killing things for fun and personal gain... to hell with you both.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from rhyseyness in PC vibration   
    Put some foam or rubber to prevent vibrating too much, make sure everything has a tight fit. I once broke the blade off of a fan and it would cause it to shake like hell, but since you said your fans were in mint condition I don't see that being a problem. It also could be your pump somehow.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from Me1z in Heat sync fell off   
    DON'T DO ANYTHING. Call Asus and get an RMA.
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    Kryptic BladeZz got a reaction from mXiyaan in Heat sync fell off   
    DON'T DO ANYTHING. Call Asus and get an RMA.
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